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Wow. Just wow. I can’t believe it has been over a year since my last post here! Can you believe it??? I mean, I was a pretty faithful poster!

Thank you to everyone who sent me messages wondering where the hell I have been and what the fuck have I been doing? (Nate mostly on the latter.) Well, what I have been doing is living PEACEFULLY. COURAGEOUSLY. GRACIOUSLY.

Yeah. That’s my answer.

Oooooohhhhh, you nosy people need details??? Hahahahahahaha!!!!

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But, really, I know you do. That’s why you are some of my favorite people on Earth… I’m nosy like that, too.

The biggest thing I have been doing these last almost 18 months is living HAPPY!!!! You know, I started my blog originally way back in like 2007 on the good ol’ Myspace, I believe. It was started out of a bad emotional place and just escalated from there, but it was my journey through my midlife crisis. All of everyone witnessed the trainwreck that was me! All of everyone also was able to see me come out of it… and flourish… and overcome my worst enemy of all: Myself.

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Around the time of my last post, I decided that it was time to stop worrying so damn much about every single thing. I never thought of myself as a worrier butย  I TOTALLY AMย ! That’s why everything everyone else said or did to me or near me (or not even near me) made me so pissed… or cryie (not a word, but you know what I mean)… or sentimental… or just crazy…

I also realized that not every topic in life requires my opinion. There are some things that I should just ignore, because geez louise, they are just emotion leechers not even worthy of being noticed. (Politics would be a good example of this for me.)

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(this is where my politics lie.)

Once I put all that on the table, I felt so freaking deliriously happy! I feel like so many things emotionally have improved for me! I no longer live in my past as (what I believed to be) that stupid wife who let her cheating husband degrade her soul for twenty years to the point that she went almost insane. I’ve never felt better about myself than I do now and I even feel pretty good about that cheating EX-husband. He doesn’t know that or care and I am even okay with that! Those of you who know me, know this is a huge accomplishment for me.

My current life with my (new) husband is amazing. We are closer than ever. We are the best of friends and truly partners now. It took some time to convince the perpetual bachelor that he was truly stuck with me but he is totally IN the game now! ๐Ÿ˜‰

My, now, 4 year old love child son is the absolute greatest thing that ever happened to me. It’s kind of dangerous because I have a grandma attitude due to my age and having been through the parenting gig once already. My husband has to keep me in check. I am the parent and need to act accordingly no matter how absolutely adorable and charming my son is. Ha!

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This will be me.

My grandson is doing great and has finally shed his babyfat. He’s super smart and gets spoiled everyday… not by me, but by his other family. I’m much more okay with that now. I used to be hurt by the distantness but it’s a baby momma thing and I literally have absolutely no control over that or her or anything. I’m just happy he is well loved and cared for always.

My daughter finally found someone to partner with. She’s only 23 so that could change anytime but I trust that she will weather through whatever roads she takes. She is still taking the absolute longest road to becoming a nurse that anyone has ever taken… and I have learned that there is absolutely nothing I can do about that so I will do nothing until she asks me for help. That’s super hard for me but I am doing it! Yay me!

My son still struggles with his illness, but once again, he is an adult and is making his own decisions that he must live with. There is nothing I can do about that so I have stopped worrying about it. I kind of have realized that he is probably going to struggle emotionally for the rest of his life but his choices are his own. My job is simply to be supportive and love him. I feel much better after realizing this and no longer offering advice to someone who just appeases me has really made my life so much less stressful!

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The month after my last post, I started a new business doing art and crafts for Christmas. I live in a small rural area but I was swamped with orders! That business has grown slowly but steadily. I decided that to offset the stress of being told every month that my job may not be there tomorrow I would start building a base for something that I could later grow into something more major. I have alot of competition in my area but my perfectionism makes my quality way better and I have more work ethic than all of my competitors combined! This gives me alot of stress but at the same time alot of incredible joy!

My husband’s grandmother died very recently. We had been dealing with her medical issues most of last year and into the early part of this year. Another strong female figure in my life was gone. I spent alot of time talking one on one with her in the last 4 months of her life. Even though her transition out of this life was a rocky, painful road, I have so much appreciation for knowing her and knowing how dearly I was loved by her. She didn’t have to love me so purely, but she did and I could feel it.

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My own family continues to do their own things. My brother got married without telling or inviting anyone. I was hurt at the time but then I just felt bad that he did not feel he was close enough to any of his family or friends to invite them. So… we have been spending more time together as families who love each other. My father and his new wife are still distant in my life and will remain that way. He calls once every two months or so, probably because his wife suggests it, but I’m okay with that. I am not responsible for how he thinks of me. New concept. LOL

My father-in-law is still a little distant but closer than he used to be, I guess. Family trauma will sometimes bring people a little closer. His sister was here for a couple of months when we were taking care of and saying good bye to his mother. She’s a strong woman who demands certain involvement so I think everyone is always closer when she’s around… she’ll kick your ass if you aren’t… literally. She’s my favorite woman! We have a standing phone date every Saturday afternoon.

So this is what I have been doing and where the hell I have been! Loving my family for who they want to be. Living each day with joy and having gratitude for my long journey that got me here. Making conscious decisions to suck it up and not worry about crap I cannot control. Working towards building a future… even as I hurtle towards being 50 years old… YIKES!

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For anyone wanting to check out my business (and buy some stuff), please visit my Facebook page at: http://www.facebook.com/kathryndesignsartdecormore

What’s next for me is I am thinking of starting a whole new blog… less emotional… more fun… much more joyfulness. I’ll post here if and when I decide to launch that. Sound boring? It’s not. You can jump on the happy train and quit judging me, you know?

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Don’t be this girl.

PEACE!!!

So my blog has been alot more popular of late due to the weight loss posts… which means we have alot of new people coming in and lurking around.

And that’s fine! If you are new here, WELCOME! ๐Ÿ™‚

However… WARNING:

New comers should be aware of several things about me so we can get along.

1. I swear. A LOT.ย 

2. I could really care less what you think of me. Judge away but I’m not losing sleep over your opinion of me.

3. I am not a private person. I live my life out loud and completely honestly every.single.day.

4. The people who really love and care for me know exactly who I am and they are the ONLY ones who matter to me.

5. I don’t run this blog for money or recognition. It’s my outlet for my own therapy. It’s like talking to myself without the chaos my mind sometimes clutters with.

Now… all that being said… I am sincerely going to try not to rant here but…

I have been blogging since 2005. It has not always been here on WordPress. The original started on Myspace. I run a mirror on EP. It started as some poetry, song lyrics, Sunday supper menus for family, thoughts on missing my mom who died from breast cancer, etc. It became my therapy when my then husband stopped taking his medications for his bipolar disorder and I began ย to worry about woulda, coulda, shoulda…

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Since I began blogging, I have gone through a complete life transformation. I went through the disintegration of my almost 20 year marriage, the first major bipolar episode and many subsequent episodes of my oldest son, a nasty and very emotionally charged divorce, the loss of my entire family whom I love/loved dearly, an insanely ridiculous rebound relationship, ย the loss of one of my best friends on earth, and the mental break down of my other best friend on earth. I also went through a horrible online dating stage and partying like a teenager stage.

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It hasn’t all been bad… Through all the storms, I have found someone who loves me for me and only me, had a beautiful new baby, had an amazing wedding, helped to navigate my daughter through two incredibly painful breakups, have seen my son begin to take control of his illness (which makes me super proud), pretty much single handedly remodeled half my house by myself, lost 60 pounds and then gained back almost 50 and have lost another 42 pounds this year.

I am a fighter… through and through… My story is MINE. I don’t give a shit if you don’t like how I have handled things. I could care less if you like me or not. I have many, many loyal readers who are dear friends of mine and have been with me the entire way. I value their opinions because they know the whole story. They don’t judge me by one post. They view it as the whole. And, no, they don’t always agree with me.

I’m okay with that. And, I will always be okay with you newcomers not agreeing with me, too. Everyone has an opinion. I get that. No problem. But, I’m not usually asking for your opinion…

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If you really just can’t help yourself and you simply MUST tell me your opinion, don’t come at me with your claws out. Especially based on one fucking post. You don’t know me or what I have been through in my life. Back the fuck off.

And, I’m only going to say this once… I will never repeat this again… Don’t you DARE tell me how I should feel or how I should handle myself as a family member or close friend of someone with mental illness. EVER. You have no right to tell me how I should feel.

YOU DON’T KNOW ME!!!!!!!!

The people I speak about in my blogs that have bipolar disorder are all fully aware and have said out loud to others that they have the disorder. It’s not a secret I am disclosing. I’m not here giving their names and addresses. I’m not breaching their trust in any way. All of them know and have known that I blog and speak out from a family member’s point of view on mental illness. The only person that would probably complain is my ex-husband but he is the LAST person on earth who can play the TRUST card with me.

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When it comes to mental illness, I believe that the supporting players — moms, dads, siblings, spouses, friends, etc. — are forgotten. There is so much damage control and stress and worrying that we all go through. The drama of what the actual person we love is going through is always the spotlight and the major focus. But the aftermath is where the supporting players come in.

I’m not saying that family members have it harder than the actual person with the mental illness. But it’s still extremely painful, heart wrenching, terrifyingly hard work to help someone who isn’t thinking rationally. It’s so emotionally draining. You feel alone in your quest because you don’t want to burden others. You have to make incredibly difficult decisions with no real guidance or guidelines that flat out guarantee you peace because there are no absolute no-fail answers. And there is definitely no one to ask.

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My (overly long winded) point is… As we deal with our mentally incapable family members and loved ones, we have fears and doubts about everything we do. And we generally suffer silently as a group out of embarrassment or despair or helplessness. We feel alone. We have thoughts that other people never have to consider. How do you plan for another person’s irrationality? I’m a planner. I make no apologies for my thoughts.

People from all over the world have messaged me or emailed me with stories of how they have dealt with the people who they dearly love but are afflicted with mental illness. I judge none of them. There is no right way or wrong way to care. It is what it is. We do the best we can that day. That’s all we can do.

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I will never judge any of you. When you message me your stories, I know you are doing the best that you can in that moment. Sometimes, it’s not our proudest moment in life but that’s okay… ย and then wake up to do it all over again the next day. Day after day, month after month, year after year…

I have lived consciously with bipolar disorder in my family since the mid 1990’s. Don’t fucking tell me how I should feel or how I should act. Unless you have been here with me for the entire ride, you really don’t have enough information to judge me.

So, hopefully, I haven’t scared too many of the newcomers. I’m sorry if any of you are offended. But, it’s a blog… no one is forcing you to be here, or read this, or follow me. Move along if you don’t like me. No worries… doesn’t bother me one bit. No need to message me. People who feel compelled to message me seem to not understand that there is a clear difference between expressing your opinion and just being a rude ass bitch.

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Liesl can fucking bite me.

PEACE!!!

I know I have been MIA. I have been so frustrated with this stall I am in and just really didn’t know what to say. I was hoping I could break it and be all like, “Look at how fucking smart I am!”

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But I’m not smart, apparently. Because I am still stalled.

UGH!!!!!

I am not perfect by far. But I am determined. Every time I do low carb, I get stalled at around 40 pounds. I get frustrated and pissed off and abandon the plan for low calorie/high carb. I’m not doing that this time. Mostly because I’m stubborn and now I feel like I have a vendetta against my rebellious body.

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So, I have just been trudging on. And not losing.

Here’s the things I think are holding me back:

1. Not enough sleep
2. Fucking PEANUT BUTTER!
3. Fucking POPCORN!
4. Too much snacking
5. Using net carbs

One of the battles I seem to be having lately is insomnia. Is this a side effect of menopause? Someone tell me now! It’s killing me. Last week, I spent one night laying wide awake in bed until 4:45am and then my kid woke up at 8am. This is not conducive to weight loss. GRRRR!

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Lately, I have been craving sweets. This is not me. I am not a sweet eater. I got fat eating onion rings, french fries, fried chicken, pasta, risotto, enchiladas, and tacos. But my one sweet spot in my heart is reserved for chocolate peanut butter ice cream. So I can’t have that low carb ice cream around because I could eat a quart in a week easily and it has ALOT of sugar alcohols. So I came up with a brilliant idea to use one tablespoon of sugar free chocolate chips mixed in with all natural peanut butter.

Now, overall, this is low carb… but not when you eat 4 tablespoons of peanut butter with it. Because 4 tablespoons is like 11 grams of carbs! That’s half of my carb allowance in general for the day! WTF? And I keep doing it! Someone stop me!

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No… REALLY… SOMEONE STOP ME!

The ONE thing that I miss on low carb more than anything in the whole wide world is bad, bad GMO popcorn with lots of real butter. And I can’t eat just a cup or two. I need to eat the whole damn bowl!

My husband and I watch and go to movies all the time. It’s like our thing. And movie theaters do not sell ANYTHING low carb. Jerky and pork rinds are NOT theater food. So shut your face if that’s your solution…

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In general, I do fine all day until I get off work. After I get my kid to bed, I am starving… I eat something… and then another something… and then some peanut butter… and then another something… GAH!

When I did low calorie/high carb, this was something I could work around. However, most of the items on low carb are high calorie or high protein. So I am constantly fucking my whole macro plan up! It’s so frustrating because I *know* what I am doing AS I am doing it!

I usually talk myself into snacking by making sure it’s low carb. But if it’s low carb, it’s usually high protein! Which just turns into glucose anyway! FML!

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For example, just now, I went and grabbed a chicken leg from the frig… I’m already at 80g of protein for the day! I didn’t need to eat the fucking chicken leg!

So this is how I am currently spiraling out of control. I do have a plan to stop it.

To Be Continued…

 

Don’t answer that. And don’t mess with me. I’m in a funk right now and might kill you with a dull spoon if you say anything cross-eyed.

So, I didn’t do an official weigh in this month yet because Aunt Flo came on the exact same day that I was scheduled to do that. Bitch. So now I am a bloaty whale. BLLLAAAAAHHHHHH!

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Seriously. I am having some issues this past month and the scale really hasn’t moved much. I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me. It’s almost like I have been PMSing for a month straight. I constantly snack. I cry over the stupidest things. I get super pissed off about stupid shit. I feel depressed but I don’t really have much to be depressed over.

I wonder if this is the start of menopause… how long does that take? I mean, is it possible that I might end up in prison? Because if it takes too long, I will probably kill someone. My research indicates that menopause can take a few years from start to finish. In which case, can I borrow some bail money? (Just getting that out of the way now….)

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But what if it’s not menopause…

Depression maybe? It has been raining like every fucking day! It’s gloomy and yucky and annoying and pisses me off and depresses me. *sigh* In general, I usually get S.A.D. pretty bad in the winter time, so that’s why I am considering that as a possible culprit.

I watched this documentary on happiness on Hulu. All these people were basically at crossroads where they were just saying, “Fuck it”. Then they would sell all their shit and do whatever they wanted. And they were all so happy. Which made me sad. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

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Not that I want to do that. But I have definitely seen better days professionally. If you are a manager or supervisor of people, please take some advice from a minion… take a minute of your precious fucking time to appreciate the people who are there to make you look good… and do NOT be condescending. Ever.

There is a good way to manage people and a bad way. It appears that bad managers always win. Why is that??? Do people really only perform well when they are being managed by really cold, non-team oriented people??? I just don’t get it.

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So, yeah…

Ugh. I hate being a whiny bitch! I am usually so good at looking at the bright side of things!

I need to pull my head out of my ass. I currently have a week off work. I need to use the week to get rid of that ho bag Flo and try to clear my head so I can think clearly. Hopefully my husband will still be alive in a week.

I’M KIDDING! Kind of. ย But, really, I swear if he does one more inconsiderate thing to me, I will lose my shit…

PEACE!

 

When I started my new way of living/eating, I decided that I would have three designated cheat days a year: My birthday, my anniversary, and Christmas Day. I know people get crazy righteous about cheat days in online communities so I keep this shit to myself…

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So, this weekend was one of those cheat days. If you want to see what I ate, feel free to go to my Myfitnesspal page and take a looksie. Yes. I documented it. The whole ugly day… fair warning — it’s a horrific carb filled nightmare. ๐Ÿ˜›

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No regrets here. I don’t feel one bit bad. ๐Ÿ™‚

Look… we are all human. Cake is good. Carbs taste fucking amazing. Let’s be real here. Life would be very sad without polenta or spaghetti or Popeye’s Spicy Fried Chicken or (insert your favorite carb here). I think it is entirely unrealistic to tell yourself you will NEVER have a certain something or another of pure bliss unless you will die from it.

I have a “foster” son who is highly lactose intolerant. He also has MS. ๐Ÿ˜ฆย  He doesn’t need any help feeling like crap and he generally tries to eat healthy for his own well being. But he loves ice cream. He doesn’t eat it often but he does occasionally do it. For him, the risk is worth the pleasure.

That’s how I view cheat days. The risk is worth the pleasure. Sooo… How much weight gain did this pleasure cost me? 6 pounds.

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I know. It seems like alot. But if you check out my food log, you will see that I ate about 3500 calories for the whole cheat day. To gain 6 pounds of actual fat, I would have had to eat at least 21,000 calories. So it’s most likely water weight. (I hope…)

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Anyway, people on Facebook and in the online groups would be freaking the hell out if this happened to them. I’m just kinda like “meh”… no biggie. I planned to do it. I knew what I wanted. I had a plan for the following week. I’m not curled up into the fetal position on my floor in deep throes of regret contemplating suicide. I’m good!

I think that the people who lose their willpower and unexpectedly fall off the wagon are the ones who freak out. Planning is key. I have known about this from the beginning. I did contemplate not doing it because I was actually within 5 pounds of my first goal (pre-happiness weight) but decided to just do it. I felt like if I didn’t stick with my plan now then I would talk myself into going off for a day later when it wasn’t as well planned out. THEN, freak out.

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So I stuck to the plan. I don’t regret it. I’m doing pretty good. I don’t really get all the extreme symptoms that people speak of when they cheat like feeling horrible from all the carbs in their system or feeling like they have the flu. What’s that about?

I suppose everyone is different… but I had no ill side effects of eating carbs. I felt fine. I feel fine. My only side effect it seems is that I am extremely tired today. Like first trimester type fatigue where I probably could have slept all day if I didn’t have a terrible two toddler running my life right now. Other than that, no issues…

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Like I said, I have a plan for this week. The plan is to eat closer to 1300-1400 calories a day (about 200-300 less than my daily average) and be pretty strict on my water intake. Today, I ate about 10 grams of carbs and I would like to keep the carbs to between 10-15 all week. Oh, also, I’m doing an all chicken week! (I’ll do a separate post on that another time.)

It’s my first cheat day this year so I am not for sure that this “plan” will redeem me from the chinese meal-a-palooza, 10 cups of buttered popcorn, 2 mixed drinks, 3 beers, and the late night gas station pizza slice I downed in a parking lot full of bar patrons. But I’m okay with it all for now.

I might be freaking out in a week or two if I never recover from this, but I am banking on the odds being with me. Fingers and toes crossed!

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PEACE!!!

 

 

I know what you’re thinking, but… WRONG SCALE!

My newest “thing” to do is literally weigh everything that goes into my mouth. I have no idea why I am wasting so much of my energy and effort to do this. But I am doing it. :/

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Weird, right? I may need like a Scales Anonymous meeting or something… Damn perfectionist OCDers! ARRRGGHHH!!!!

So, I figured I would post a new recipe. Lettuce wraps have also become a new obsession for me. I actually have some lower carb tortilla wraps from Buena La Vida (4 net carbs). My problem with them is that they taste doughy and the gross carb count is 9 per wrap. That’s too rich for my blood when I am currently trying to keep my gross under 25-30. And I like the quantity that romaine lettuce leaves give me.

So, tonight, after having a lunch of 5 BLT wraps (YUM!), I decided that the ground turkey in my fridge needed to be cooked pronto! What to make, what to make… TACOS! Of course!

Here it is!

 

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Looks awesome, right? I have no idea why people aren’t making taco meat every damn day on Low Carb! If someone had told me how little net carbs are in these spices, I would have been all over that from day one!

Instructions: Brown the ground turkey over medium heat on the stovetop in a regular skillet. You may need to add some fat if it’s extra lean like mine was. I used 1 tsp. of bacon grease leftover from my lunch. I didn’t count it above, though, because I figured most people aren’t as lazy as me people may use different fats than me. Anywhooo… brown the meat. Add the spices. Add maybe 1/2 cup of water. Keep the heat on medium for the stove. Stir it up real well, heat thoroughly, and make sure all the spices are blended into the meat good. Serve in a lettuce wrap! Or whatever your current wrap obsession is… Servings – 8 – 1/3 cup servings approximately.

DISCLOSURE: I should also tell you that this meat is intensely flavorful. I think that’s better when I am using something like lettuce as a wrap. You could probably cut the chili powder and cumin in half and it would still taste just fine. And, you may be able to eliminate the onion powder as well. I only added it because I thought I would not be using onions in the wrap but I did… because I love onions. It’s a flaw, I know… ๐Ÿ˜›

Here’s the final product:

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Holy freaking YUM, right??? It was sincerely awesome. The whole two wrap meal was 420 calories, 38 grams of protein, 26 grams of fat (this could maybe be higher, but I’m using ground turkey… next time I’ll use beef), 10 grams of carbs with 3 grams of fiber = 7 NET CARBS. That’s with the meat, lettuce, salsa, cheese, onions, and sour cream! I thought about maybe doing a squirt of a chile infused oil of some sort… to up the fat… Or maybe avocado?

If you’d like to see what I’m eating and doing, you can friend me over at myfitnesspal. My name is reneeroling over there and I am a loser with no friends. Maybe because I’m obnoxious, but it still gets lonely. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am feeling pretty pissy PMSy so we will see how that goes. This next month, if the weather would just cooperate, I am going to start walking. Which reminds me that I need to go order my stun gun flashlight so people don’t EFF with me… Small town folk, ya know? ๐Ÿ˜†

PEACE!!!

 

So, today I posted this picture in one of my Facebook groups:

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All I asked was what the dextrose was… because I was standing at my stove and couldn’t remember which “ose” was good and which were bad. As of this posting, I have 66 responses and half of them were busy telling me not to eat it, that I might die, that MSG is the devil, and that I should make my own sausage from grass-fed meat only. Fucking food nazi’s…

So, I politely thanked everyone for their unsolicited advice and education. It did get a small select few of us talking about how the people trying to scare the shit out of educate me could possibly be scaring away people who could not afford all organic, grass-fed, pure, unprocessed products from even doing LCHF as a lifestyle/way of eating. And I completely agree.

So for all you broke ass, lazy mofos who are low carbing or doing keto or low carb, high fat (LCHF) right now, here’s what I was making with the franken-sausage in question:

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CHEAP ASS ZUPPA TOSCANO

Serves 8

Ingredients Calories Protein Fat Carbs Fiber Sugar
Pork – Cured, bacon, raw, 6 ounces or 170 g 779 20 77 1 0 0
Onion – Red Onion, Raw, about 3/4 Cup chopped or 106 g 42 1 00 10 2 4
Spices – Garlic powder, 1 tbsp 28 1 0 6 1 2
Flav-R-Pac – Frozen Chopped Spinach (10 oz Package), 1 container 90 6 0 9 3 3
College Inn – Chicken Broth 14.50 oz. Can, 2 cans (2 cups ea.) 60 4 0 0 0 0
Water – Municipal, 2 cup (it totally didn’t kill me) 0 0 0 0 0 0
Cauliflower – Frozen, unprepared, one 16 oz. package or 425 g 102 9 1 20 10 9
Animal fat – Bacon grease, 3 Tablespoons 231 0 26 0 0 0
Horizon – Heavy Whipping Cream – 8 tbsp 416 2 44 3 0 0
Spices – Basil, dried, 1 Tablespoon, leaves 5 0 0 1 1 0
Aldi’s Appleton Farms – Pork Sausage, Premium, Regular, 10 oz. 950 55 80 0 0 0

 

INSTRUCTIONS:

  1. Brown the bacon, the processed sausage (which I did not make myself because I am effing laaazzzyyyy…), garlic powder, and chopped onion together. You can use any kind of onion but red onion is what I had on hand that needed to be used up. Once browned, most people will drain off the fat. I did not. That’s why you see an entry to bacon grease in there. It doesn’t need to be added. I am just assuming that is how much remained. (I know, I should have measured…)

  2. I put the spinach and cauliflower in the microwave for about two minutes in their own packaging just to thaw it slightly so it would be easier to work with and not in clumps. I then added the whole package of spinach and maybe a third of the cauliflower to the browned meat and onions. I let it cook for maybe 5 minutes to soak up the yummy good meat fat.soup1
  3. With the remaining cauliflower, I loaded it into my magic bullet blender with half a can of chicken broth (Gasp! CANNED chicken broth! I am for sure going to hell now…). I blended it until it looked fully pureed and then added it to the pot.

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  4. I, then, added the rest of the open can of chicken broth and added ANOTHER can of chicken broth. I also added another can of just Tap water. ๐Ÿ˜ฏ
  5. Simmer on medium heat for about an hour.
  6. Serve with either 1 Tablespoon of heavy whipping cream mixed into each serving or with a dollop of creme fraiche (is that spelled right?) or sour cream. I used both for the picture above, because I am already screwed for the day… ๐Ÿ˜†

This recipe made over 8 cups. I’m not exactly sure how much because I got busy with the baby, and before I knew it, my husband had eaten 2 large mugs of it! He is not LCHF but tends to eat all my stuff! Grrr! He’s lucky he’s hot…

So 8 total – 1 cup servings. 338 Calories / 12g protein / 29g fat / 6g carb / 2g fiber / 2g sugar per serving.

I haven’t read up on keto eating alot but I believe this is perfect in the macros for that diet and looks good to me as a LCHF person. The protein is moderate and you could even eat two servings and still be okay. You could also lower the carb content by eliminating the onion, or maybe doing less spinach or cauliflower…

And, this cost *maybe* $6-$7 total. And this is a meal, folks. Filling, higher fat content, and tastes great. Even my 2 year old son ate a full bowl of it with some evil saltine crackers added in. ๐Ÿ˜‰

As you can see, it doesn’t have to cost a ton of money to eat a LCHF lifestyle. Would it be better to use all unprocessed, organic ingredients? Of course it would. But it would have cost at least 3 times more to do that, maybe more…

So… that all being said… don’t let the food nazis make you feel guilty for trying to better your life in an affordable way. Obesity kills. Period. Do what you need to do to better yourself and FUCK THE HATERS! ๐Ÿ˜‰

PEACE!!!